dam!

life is starting to suck again. *sighs*

my school is like starting in 19 days, and i have absolutely no idea what to expect. many changes to expect. the 1 i'm fearing the most is the system and style of the education. plus the shift to "grown-up topics", everything just feels so... uncomfortable. =s and if i carry on thinkin about this, it will just sink further into topics such friends, lifestyle etc. etc.... oh gosh! STOP!

NYAA... it's seriously bothering me, especially after the responsibility of finding an organization to serve at had been put on me. like wth. i knew it was gonna be sh!t. argh! ok, honestly the task of finding the organization isn't that bad, but what i find difficult is making decisions for a group of people. sounds stupid huh? well that's the reality, that's me.

AVLC Project. so my ExCo has been assigned the Scout Guild campfire as our project. thankfully it's one of the simplest projects. and hell yea i'm oh-so-anxious to start and finish the project. but UNFORTUNATELY, obstacles just start appearing even before our first meeting. MYEs! rar! sadly, i'm demoralised by it. =( it's really sickening you know. it has to happen all the time. like ALL THE TIME. *rolls eyes*
all hope is not lost though. 'cause at the back of my head, i know that as the leader of the team, my attitude sets the team's attitude.
i shall be positive.
i will be motivated.
i must be dedicated.
WE CAN DO IT!!! *screams and cheers*


oh i can't wait for another night with the lovelies.