sum rather random stuff.. but it's juz stayin my mind lately..

as we all noe.. sec4 is sumwad a crucial year bcoz of o lvls, which links to life aft tt... education frm there on n career in mind bla bla bla.


pursueing dreams vs living comfortable
objective: Happiness

one can nv get the best of both worlds.. ok or at least I can nv get the best of both.. perhaps it's bcoz my dreams r shallow n impractical. but wad i'm tinkin abt is going to work happily evryday. den agn.. my desired job MAY bring me lil income which is gonna make evryday life difficult.. stress over how to live by each day.. scrimping n saving n in the end a pile of unhappiness..

n if i look in the more pracical way, lyk all humans would, den i shud choose a job tt brings me loads of cashies.. only den can life b comfortable, living in luxury n comfort. imagine the car, the branded clothes, the face... ahh.. ok tt's juz so =DD.. but to tink of goin to work evryday, tt juz sux. draggin myself to work evryday n suffer! omg.. tt's pure TORTURE.. so there's no happy ending once again.

"tuesdays with morrie" had a teaching inside which was sumting bout "rejecting popular cultural beliefs in favour of self-created values". if i'm not wrong it's abt living on love, acceptance n appreciation over that of greed, violence n superficiality.. yep.. so frm my pt of interpretation, it would mean i go after my dreams n seek self-satisfaction frm wad truly gives substantial emotional fufilment.. n NOT live under the greed for $$$ n a confortable life..

BUT we haf the face the facts of tis practical society. money works.. money makes the world go round. money brings happiness.. money gives u life.. money buys u "face".. money buys u power.. money is EVERYTING. in terms of tis practical money-minded society, only money can bring me happiness? is tt it?, coz tt's wad it seems to b.

haix.. i'm so vexed over tis.. how m i goin to carry on wif my education when i dunno which route to take.. sumting tt suits my dreams? or sumting tt brings me to money? help.. help... argh!! now i m hating ADULT life.. imagine all the taxes, the expenses, the fees, the world of money n "face"... OMG!! i dun wan tt to come! sumhow i really tink i shud juz commit suicide man.. life seems to b getting worse n worse as we go on... no wonder sum1 came up wif these. "We are born naked, wet, and hungry. Then things get worse" & "Life is one of those things that most of us find very difficult to avoid"..

ok wadeva.. i dun wish to tok abt tis anymore.. it's killin me! i need sum1 to guide me.. coach daniel mayb? hmm....


tings r juz starting to become horrible...
but 1 ting will always remain...