time's passing by so quickly tt i can hardly keep up with it.
everything's changed so much tt it seems foreign to me.

it's already the 2nd week of 2008. the faces, the environment, the lifestyle, all the changes are starting to set in. the 91 babies are out of ahs, while the 95 babies are just beginning their journey to become A.H.S. leaders. lol.

much has changed in AHS. for a start, many of the familiar faces we used to see standing in front of our classrooms are no longer around. even our dearest CCP is no longer around. replaced by CSJ, the students seem to be more displeased than ever. =X owells, maybe this is what they call a REVOLUTION? i can still rmb the time when dr. B just became P, many changes were made to how things were done, n i thot it'd all settle down aft a year or 2. but now, i suppose it's just the BEGINNING. what happened earlier was simply a prelude. realistically, it doesn't matter to me anymore. why m i even bothering?

moving into the next phase of life. most 91 babies are finding their space in some JC, but tt's not the case for me. if you didn't know, i did NOT apply for PAE (it's using one's prelim results to enter a JC for the initial few months/weeks b4 the "O" lvl results are out. aft tt thr'll b JAE whr one uses his/her "O" lvl results to enter JC/poly/some other institute.). i've been working, but trying really hard to find another job so tt i can get out of the current one. it's not because the job's difficult(i'm takin' it as a challenge, seriously) or boring(refer to previous entry), but simply because the pay is low. anyway, i doubt i can actaully find a job tt's to my preference & will accept a part-timer tt'll only b working for 1 mth. y can't ms. C just squeeze out a vacancy for me. =(

sorry, but i'm experiencing a sudden surge of sadness. it's like, time goes by & our lives just keep moving on. the faces come and go, just like the friends you used to know. just when you thot u were at the peak of a current phase, u are forced to move into the next.

ok it's really stupid to be thinking these kinda things. sheesh. & i'm so gonna die as a regretful psn. so many things i've not done n was forced to give up. oh man this sucks. T.T


dang! i shall avoid these emo feelings. i'm off.


15, there's never a wish better than this
when you only got 100 years to live

at least tt's one regret removed.