When There Was Me And You by Vanessa Anne Hudgens
(Gabriella Montez, High School Musical)

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Because I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you



and i'll carry on pretending tt it doesn't exist...
DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER.
SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.

=D



when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you...
pls don't read this if u cant stand stupid n lame stuff..

random typeouts...

i think that...
+ topless guys in jeans r HOT.
+ MOST short guys are ADORABLE.
+ decent-lookng guys are CUTE.
+ girls who flirt ard r B*TCHES.
+ bimbos are COOL.
+ dumb blondes are HILARIOUS.

i wanna try/learn/do...
+ ALL SORTS of DANCING xcept hip-hop & breakdance
(pole, salsa, jazz, contemporary, ballet, tap, step, waltz, tango, belly, cha-cha, foxtrot, irish)
+ baking
+ photo/video editing
+ software engineering/programming

it's for a fact tt...
+ eyecandies make me go HYPER.
+ chendol gives my SUGAR RUSH.
+ hot guys TURN ME ON
+ cracking jokes is NOT my FORTE
+ history makes me SLEEP

k tt's all.. i'm juz too bored.. XD


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAN JUN YANG! =D
39th SC HANDOVER cum 40th SC INVESTITURE during today's assembly...

president no more.
councillor no more.

a great job done by the 4oth batch... dance was good...

ok i shall go into a lil details..

left class at 1.05pm n rushed down to PAS.. had a few dance practices till 1.45 ard there... then we all changed to our blazer attire in the PAS.. yep. IN the PAS.. guys on 1 half, gals on the other.. aft tt we had a "photo-taking session" lol.. informal shots n formal shot.. gosh it's our last time wearing our full blazer attire all together..

anw i had to wait at the side of the hall for my speech, while the rest stayed in PAS.. emcee screwed a lil when they forgot to invite all councillors onto stage.. yep but tt's juz a minor ting.. had my speech (hope i didn't "swallow" my words. =S) & invited my batch in.. felt a lil emo but i guess my mind was too focused on the attn given by the audience.

handed over the badge n we walked out.. sumhow it felt lyk only a minute la.. evrything was lyk ZOOM n it was all over.. HOWEVER, i can still rmb tt the PA turned down the vol during our walkout, which was lyk wth.. lost the impact la.. owells it's over..

rushed down to PAS agn n changed into our dance attire... sumhow, i dunno how, we juz dilly-dally n took ages to get completely ready... lol.. went up. standby @ backstage...

b4 we knew it, it was our dance... I DIDN'T SCREW THE 2nd CHORUS! =DD lmao.. coz during the rehearsals i tend to slide to the oppsite direction. XD hoped the dance was good.. anw hrd luhuan put up a "banner" to support the sec4s. haha.. rockx la.. =D

evryting ended, packed our stuff, then we hung ard in the concourse.. sum of the sec4s were giving little notes out.. gosh so saddening la.. officially handed over le.. might haf been our very last time tgt as a batch (hope there's farewell to bring us back tgt agn...).. mixed emotions.. both happy and sad... happy in the sense tt we finally get the chance to focus on our O's comletely.. but sad in the sense tt reality forces us to let things go.. it juz seems lyk suddenly evryting has ended n there's so much uncertainty on whether our batch will still remain tgt.. no matter wad, my batch has indeed given me many sweet memories worth remembering..

well i guess it's really only when u pause n finally haf the time to look back to reflect, u c the big picture.. it's only now when the load is gone tt i realize so many things.. i can stiu rmb liting tellin me this quote "A man who wants to lead the orchestra must turn his back on the crowd.".. n now then do i see the light in it.. honestly there were so many things that i was forced to give up/neglect/go against due to my position.. haix i guess tt's the main issue tt's makin me feel sad. beyond tt, i'm also very pleased tt i actually grew n learnt so much in terms of character and abilities.. okok i think i shud stop here, or the entry would bcum a speech liao..


like i said in my speech..
to my batch: there had been so many mistakes we committed and so much that we've been thru tgt. but beyond all these, what really matters to me is the frenship tt we've forged. i truly treasure the times we had tgt..
additional: it's really been a pleasure to noe evry1 of u. n i sincerely hope tt we can kip in touch n rmb 1 another for life.. wish tt we can put up a performance tgt agn, for nx yr's founders day perhaps? =)



for ur happiness, i'll make myself invisible to you.
random entry at a random time. =D

it's abt yest, fri 20/7
skl was horrid, coz there was bio mock exam aft skl.. blehx! anw i tink i'm gonna flunk it. =X o o o.. n for the very few times, EL was funny.. we had the lesson outside tower hall, kinda funny but the atmosphere made it sumwad relaxing.. lol..

skl ended n i rushed lyk a madman to change into my blazer attire.. went down to meet at the GO, n they told me n ny tt our fotoshoot wuld b changed to aft our mock exam.. o.O gosh they suck.. made us run n perspire.. in the end tell us it's pushed back..

BIO mock exam.. open-ended questions were a disaster. doubt i can pass tt section of the paper.. as for the mcq, i'm only confident for a pass.. =X

aft the mock exam, back to the fotoshoot.. it was lame n spastic.. 1st we had the shot where we juz stood str8 n looked into the distance.. then the nx pose was with our rite hands up, as if reciting sum pledge... n then the super funny part came.. we were supposed to haf a shot where we were chatting n SMILING at the same time.. n apparently i suck at it.. coz hand movements/gestures were required n my hands juz didn't felt comfortable at any position.. the spastic part is actually the part where we r required to smile n appear ecstatic as we were having the chat.. LOL...

rushed home to bathe n change, then i headed out.. BBQ at chua's place! us sec4s were supposed to meet at 5.30 at tanah merah mrt. but AS EXPECTED, ppl were late.. n in the end we dragged all the way till 6++ b4 we actually headed down to chua's.. oh man.. most prob our last gathering until aft O's.. i didn't really PLAY much there, but the presence of so many sec4s simply made it enjoyable for me.. =D sum of em played basketball, sum went into the pool, others played cards, sum juz lazed ard n many of us were zi-high'ing. XD.. sweet memories...



noh a^o7 !
yayness!.. wad a freakin' bastard. may god bless you. EYECANDY GALORE! =D


Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life by Monty Python

Some things in life are bad yea, so true
They can really make you mad >=(
Other things just make you swear and curse. oops! =X
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle i can't whistle. =_=
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life... sure, i'll TRY.
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten hmm... i c.
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing. yay! ^.^
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing. i said i cant whistle.

And...always look on the bright side of life... =D
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word o.O
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin =DDD
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit oh yea! oh yea! S.H.I.T.
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go wahahahaha? LOL.
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...


this song makes me happy, for no apparent reason. XD


j3! WILL YOU B MY BOYFREN? XP i promise i'll try to b faithful. x)
jkjk.



they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. but i beg to differ.
YOU make it the total opposite.
CHEM TEST TML.

NAPFA TEST TML.

sianx

good luck to me. =S i tink i'm gonna screw both up
EYECANDY #7! JY! =D finally, aft so long...

yayness! x)



scold me. slap me. punch me. kick me.
just do anything to make me forget about YOU.
TODAY IS A LOVELY DAY! coz i didn't c ur disgusting face, a**hole coz skl was short n it ended at 11.50! =D

anw today's skl ain't tt boring.. 1st 2 periods of maths nth much rly.. kinematics.. =S

aft tt was chinese.. & there's tis freakin lame joke tt's lyk stuck in my head. XD so OPG was tokkin bout the 课 halfway, then she suddenly tok abt our compo test which we had on fri.. was comparing the LONG (so-called GOOD) 5 pg essay versus the SHORT (so-called LOUSY) 2pg plus essay... den she cracked tis lame joke bout the short essay.. 线绑豆腐, 一提就烂, 干脆别提了. lyk omgosh la.. XD

recess! spastic thing happend.. not to me.. but to YIYEE.. XD she was being herself, acting lyk a fool.. covered her whole face to avoid sum1 buggin her for donations.. n as she was stupidly coverin her face, her frens ard the table stacked the plates n pushed em in front of her, b4 makin their leave.. den when she finally dropped her hands, she was lyk shocked. lol. u shud really c her face at tt time.. XD

BIO lab aft recess.. wad a dumb experiment.. testing for oxygen produced during photosynthesis.. ok.. not the experiment dumb.. juz tt all SKILL 3 based experiments suck. =X

last period of the day, PHYSICS. RADIOACTIVITY! =D bloody cool.. the case of the russion spy killed by POLONIUM. HALF-LIFE, nuclear bombs, radiation... lyk omgosh it's physics! XD alpha, beta & gamma radiation.. ALPHA 概嘛被打? LOL. dam lame..


aft skl! movie movie movie!!! went to TM to watch movie.. had lunch at Phil's. seemed lyk a HIGH-CLASS restaurant, n we totally looked lyk sum creatures on display la.. the seats no privacy at all la.. XD anw huiling n binli watched the 2.30 timeslot HP, which apparently many other AH peepx were also watching.. while i watched transformers all alone. ok i noe i'm lyk laggin la.. summore watch HP b4 transformers. XD

transformers was a COOL movie.. all the action n graphics.. exciting.. o o o there was one part where the sound even made the theatre tremble.. XD totally rocked... ok dun wish to elaborate on the storyline. =P


tt's all for my HALF-day.. XD



always look on the bright side of life...
but it's impossible when all i can think of is YOU. =(
oh oh oh!!! i jus found out tt godwin's fren, whose name i could not rmb 2days ago, is called CHRISTOPHER!

yay! =D
life is Sugar.Honey.Iced.Tea.!

honestly i hate what is happening now.. ppl r so blinded by hatred tt they r slowly losing their true nature.. it's really sad to c how sum1 get so worked up over a certain comment made, n starts devising a plan to get back at tt psn.. it's a vicious cycle tt's gonna consume both parties. they r gonna lose their sanity n humanity!

k tt really sucks.. n there's another thing tt sucks too.. INVEST. cum HANDOVER SPEECH! lyk omgosh i haven't got any idea wad to say.. ok.. more of there's too much tt i can say, so i cant really decide what to focus on.. anw my mind's in a big whirl.. too many tings crammed into tt tiny space.. i hope i'm not gonna fall into an EMO state. =S

PRELIMs. INVESTITURE. DANCE. SPEECH. HIKE REPORTS. EMOTIONS. FRUSTRATION. SADNESS. FAREWELL. STRESSFUL. random thoughts rojak in my mind...



cos YOU define impossibilities in my life...
the complexity of media and its influence over mankind...
how mind-boggling & disgusting. blehx!
TODAY IS 14th JULY. & I WATCHED HARRY POTTER. I M VERY HAPPY. =D

LOL. pri skl essay? XD nah.. juz being myself, RETARDED. xP

anw today i went out to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.. watched the movie with Godwin, Hao Kai & another fren whose name i cant rmb.. =X anw it seemed weird, coz i was the only sec4.. n lyk so NO LINK.. LOL.. anw we decided to watch it at century, so as to avoid as many AH ppl as possible. BUT apparently there were so many sec2 NCC guys tt watched the same movie at the same time with us.. =_=.. so much for AVOIDING.. LOL.. the movie was ok la.. not really action-packed (or duel-packed).. focused more on the emotions n stuff lyk tt.. yep. anw for those hu read the bk, the movie shows only a very small part of the whole story. lacks alot of details n information.. yep.. godwin makes me smile. =D &&& darren is so so SO CUTE! x)

church service in the evening. =)

tt's all.. n I'M MISSING PPL! =(
J3! & JY! xP



i'm juz tryin to give u more space, not push u aside.
thou it may seem lyk nth happened, the fact still remains unchanged.
avoiding reality is what i'm trying to do.
coz it's the only way to relief the pain.
HEYhey EARTHLINGS, ALIENS, FREAKS, MONSTERS, WIZARDS, WITCHES etc etc etc... XD
LOL

i'm BACK! aft wad seems lyk forever without internet.. internet was down for the past few days.. n yest i was juz too SLEEPY to post.. yea..

i'll TRY to recall what happened since sat.. muz rmb sat coz it's HANDOVER... lol.

sat. 07/07/07
wad a BEAUTIFUL date! =D.. anw it was scouts handover.. early in the morn 7am in skl.. initially sum of us were feeling cheeky n wanted to reach at 7.07am.. so tt we catch the AUSPICIOUS hour.. XD ok nvm nvm.. anw there was RAIN tt ruin n dragged the whole plan.. but FORTUNATELY it stopped n we still managed to haf POP in the parade sq.. kk wadeva.. moving on... video was great.. actually it was lame n funny.. which makes it great.. XD

aft tt had PSYCHO TALK to join ventures.. seems lyk the psycho'ing worked.. LOL. XD i'm sorta interested, if the rest of the batch joins.. xP but anw their talk lyk totally wasted so much of our time.. could tell tt they were expecting a "YES I WANNA JOIN!" kinda ans..

at nite went for CCHMS (Chung Cheng High Main School) campfire.. IGNIS! =D it was the last campfire tt the sec4s were attending, so we really made sure we enjoyed it to the fullest.. XD.. mass dance was hilarious.. banana song was pure craziness.. father abraham was spastic.. omg. ROTFLMAO. & kang long is so cute!

anw i tink girls r far more emotional than guys.. guys r woodblocks la! lol.. coz on the coach to bedok mrt, the guides were singing their rendition of my bonnie, which was really farewell style.. oh bring back my sec4s to me.. so sweet la.. scouts would b goin oh quick hand those lanyards to me... or oh quick bring those sec3s to me.. whatever man! xP


sun. 08/07/07
woke up at 12nn.. o.O got ready to leave n meet at bugis mrt stn at 2pm.. CDS CONCERT!!! =D went with sockling, chermaine, yingsi, n shuhan.. actually is kinda last minute ting.. LOL. coz i asked sockling for a ticket on fri.. n i was supposed to go alone.. but in the end i joined em.. haha.. anw, the concert was FANTASTIC. totally rocked! honestly... omg! eyecandies!

concert ended n sockling, chermaine n i went bedok interchange for dinner.. in the end i reached home n KO.. didn't do any hw or studying during the whole weekend.. LOL. OOPx =X


mon. 09/07/07
skl was horrible.. 4 periods of mathematics.. o.O pure torture. blehx! aft skl had dance prac, which left me lyk half dead.. anw had a chance to tok to edbert.. he's rather nice.. n i tink he's cool n cute, in a way or 2. xP aft tt came home n immediately KO..


today. tue. 10/07/07
chemistry was zzz... macromolecules - condensation polymerisation.. o.O EL was screwed. =X SS was slack relaxing. physics was another ZZZ... aft 2nd recess had SEL.. totally lame.. LOL...

aft skl had dance prac agn.. badminton having trg in tower hall.. eyecandy NGX! =D

aft tt went to bedok interchange with liting to haf dinner n do hw.. KFC.. nth much other than our usual ever-so-exciting conversations n short dramas.. LOL. XD



okok.. tt's all.. i've got nth else to say. xP
gotta get my invest speech done real soon.



just be happy & do what pleases you.
i shall not b selfish.
HOMEWORK? oh! i crushed em up n threw em into a dark corner.. XD

VERY TIRED n ZZZ during skl.. coz last nite slept at 3+.. all due to laziness. =X owells..

1st ting today was common test. emaths. screwed it up.. =X din do 1qns(out of a 5) n got another qns wrong.. the teachers r damn sly la.. set the questions in a way tt part c answers required part b answers, which had to be derived frm part a... lyk omgosh la.. cant do part a n goodbye to the whole qns..

Bio lab was a big mess, as always.. childish peepx having fun EXPLORING the wonders of nature, removing the flesh of limes, cutting up angsana fruits and saying stupid stuff.. goodness.. but it added laughter to the table.. XD

aft skl went to den.. supposedly to CLEAN it up.. well it got a LITTLE cleaner, but overall still considered DIRTY. XD

went for dance prac aft tt.. at tower hall.. it suckx.. attendance was bad n i couldn't get to make my "speech".. blehx! gotta find a time real soon for the expression...


tml aft skl haf EL test... or issit mock exam? doesn't matter.. juz noe tt evry friday gotta stay back aft skl for tests n mock exams.. sianx... liddat how to self-study?


HEYhey youngsters out there! pls slp early ok.. or else u'll get UGLY DARK RINGS & HIDEOUS EYE BAGS... bad for ur skin too...
LOL.. so random.. XD



i'll always b there to listen n try to understand...
YAY! HOMEWORKIN' @ VOID DECK rocks! =D

skl today...
got scolded by lily koh during EL lesson. blehx! huiling hates her. LOL.

physics practical sucked.. coz i haf a permanent partner tt's so disgusting yuck. hate physics practicals.. always seem lyk thr's no direction. o.O.. anw today was the carrying out of our planned experiment.. marble rolling down the slope. determining the angle affecting final velocity... zzzz.... zzzz.... boring!

SEL period.. OPG couldn't come in.. got us to do the 2001 paper.. initially i was the ANGEL, having great dreams of completing the assignment within the 2 periods.. but in the end i DID NOT. LOL.. spent the time finishing up the physics practical ws.. wth.. gosh! wad a torture.. LOL..


aft skl ASG went to bedok interchange.. got lotsa ppl upset coz sum of us couldn't make up our minds.. ok.. more of saying a YES or NO.. coz we haf tis bad habit of saying ANYTHING. lol.. i'm guilty! =X anw anw.. went to bedok mac, ate. aft tt we juz went to comics connection for awhile coz sockling wanted to go thr... well.. apparently tt's all tt we did, excluding details such as conversations...

came home. SLACKED rested.. then after a short while i went dwn to the void deck to do homework. n i've come to a conclusion... i shall do it everyday so tt i can finish my hw! =D no more SLACKIN n PROCRASTINATING for me... o lvls my goodness... LOL...

random stuff... cinnamon donut rocks! yummy... =9



dun force me to ruin u n ur life.
I DID NOT SLACK MY DAY THRU TODAY YEST! =D

the oh-so-lovely me has successfully completed a portion of my weekend homework! cheers! thou it's not all, it's still worth cheering over ok.. i mean it's JUN LE the ultimate slacker for goodness sake. xP whatever.. i'm juz feeling HIGH!

anw i was feeling NICE out of the blue moon.. n i decided to write comments on friendsters for ppl! random selection but it felt great. all of a sudden i felt so in love with so many ppl. =D everyone has their flaws, BUT I DON'T CARE. it's their strengths tt count. =) lovely! y m i juz so random? LMAO... XD

youth day holiday is OVER.. skl's gonna begin.. my OFFICIAL MUGGING starts. o.O
gosh! PRELIMS r in 9 more weeks! =0
gotta mug hard sec4s! hang in there n it'll b over in no time.. LOL. hu m i kidding...


k... guess tt's all for now.. gotta go to bed so tt i wont go ZZZ'ing in class tml. xP



it's ok. dreaming is my forte.

they told me to move along, but i just remained stagnant...

sucky weekends.. just bcoz of 1 day holiday, we get tonnes of extra homework.. lyk omgosh. it's horrible.. blehx!

anw weekends r absolutely boring (other than church on saturday nights), considering tt there's no more cca or additional activities.. not used to it.. ok.. i'm lyk so looking foward to nx weekend. thre's definitely gonna b sumting for me to do on saturday(not church).. BUT apparently it has also gotten me real messed up. =S CDS concert or CCHS campfire? which shud i go? i paid for CDS concert n i really dun wanna miss it.. CCHS campfire is most probably the very last campfire i can go, n many of the sec4s r goin as well.. i'm dying for tt special nite... OMG. tis is hard! advice any1?

coz i'm dying for attention, warmth and love...

& i oso realised how my blog is dying. not really posting... i guess it's really bcoz i'm emotionally affected ba.. n sumhow songs juz seem to b able to express how i feel, so i'd rather put up lyrics.. ok tis is really gettin frm RANDOM to CONFUSING.. i shall stop. conclusion: i shall work towards publishing proper posts with CONTENT.

homework sucks. let's burn em all! =D

i'm seeking for understanding, not avoidance and rejection...







& it's YOU i'm foolishly waiting for...