started the day with 39th SMExCO meeting.. it was a really great feeling, thou it wasn't really productive.. gosh i'm so gonna miss those times...

& I FINALLY FINISHED MY HCL HOLIDAY HOMEWORK! =D
woohoo! partaye!!

nth special for skl.. =

aft skl had scouts for awhile.. to distribute donation draw booklets n go thru the hike reports for my lvl.. well it's been 1 yr since i've started takin my lvl.. n sumhow i'm juz really sorry to em.. haix.. i guess i'm juz not cut out to b a gd UG senior.. =\

then went for invest dance prac at TEN.. it was really sweet to c so many of us puttin in effort n dancing tgt.. =D. anw we prac'ed till 6 plus b4 we left.. apparently i couldn't even learn more than 4 counts of 8. =X gotta work hard for the nx prac!!!

BIO TEST n CHI TING1 XIE3 tml! =(



i'm sorry for today...
i really made a wrong move...
I'M FREAKIN' HELL SCREWED!
I'M A GONER!



I'M MADLY LIKING YOU...
& desperately hopin for my dream to come true..
50 FIRST REACTIONS! (koped frm frenster.. xP)
type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1. Beer:
hmm...

2. Food:
yum... =9

3. Relationships:
ehh...

4. Your CRUSH:
xP

5. Power Rangers:
dots... =_=

6. Life:
sucks!

9. The President:
SR Nathan

10. Yummy:
chocolate! =D

11. Cars:
FERRARI!

12. Movie:
FANTASTIC 4 - rise of the silver surfer!

13. Halloween:
BLOODY COOL.

15. Religion:
*raises eyebrow

16. Myspace:
not my kinda ting...

17. Fear:
screaming lyk an idiot. XD

18. marriage:
impossible for me. =X

19. Blondes:
DUMB... edison! xP

20. SLIPPERS:
flip-flops.

21. SHOES:
PUMA! & BOOTS!

22. Asians:
SHORT YELLOW-SKIN peepx...

23. Pass time:
HUH?

24. One night stands:
cool.. heehee.. =X

25. Cell Phone:
GET ME A NEW 1!

27. Smoke:
BBQ in canteen...

28. Fantasy:
*ehem... x)

29. COLLEGE:
ARGH!!!

30. Highschool Life:
I NEVER WANNA SAY GOODBYE! =(

31. Pyjamas:
swimming... FLOAT!

32. stars:
MILKY WAY...

33. Fitness Center:
NAPFA.. o.O

34. Alcohol:
ORGANIC CHEM... gosh!

37. Money:
BLING BLING and KACHINGs.

38. Heartache:
CRY lyk a water fountain...

39. Time:
PUNCTUALITY pls...

40. Divorce:
B*ST*RDS and B*TCHES

41. Dogs:
BITE! ouch...

42. Undies:
KINKY. =X

43. Parents:
treasure them.. =')

44. Babies:
HELL TIME...

45. Stripper:
woohoo! xP

46. Blogs:
FOREVER MAKE ME EMO...

47. News:
CNA.

48. Weddings:
RED BOMB! yummy food!

49. Pizza:
MOZERELLA & PARMESAN cheese! =9

50. Kleenex:
tissue paper. =_=


k so i went out n tried to finish hw.. went to bedok library but it was very crowded, so i settled for BK.. outcome is terrible.. preparing a paper tray for a GREEN stack.. =X
blehx!!!



as the cold wind blows...
goin out to ATTEMPT finishing june hols hw, a 3cm-thick stack of papers...
blehx!!!



but u chose to shatter my heart so viciously...
IT'S ALL OVER!

but i just cant seem to let go...
too many regrets, too much guilt & neverending apologies...
horrific nightmares, ugly screw ups, unacceptable inefficiency & the incapable ME..



I LIKE YOU, I REALLY DO...
I'M FALLIN FOR U,
JEREMY OR KA KIT! =D
FEELING EMO TODAY! =(

was in skl doing hw but got distracted by the PA(performing arts) rehearsals..
then i started feeling very sad. =( & i got real emo...

I'M MISSING AHS.
I'M MISSING MY 39th SM+ExCo.
I'M MISSING FALCON SCOUTS.
I'M MISSING ALL MY JUNIORS.
I'M MISSING MY EYECANDIES.
I'M MISSING EVERY SINGLE CAMP.
I'M MISSING THOSE MEMORIES.



& i'm totally missing YOUR sweet smile n heartwarming laughter...
"Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal."
- Ralph Vaull Starr

"If you have a dream, give it a chance to happen."
- Richard M. DeVos

"All our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them."
- Walt Disney

RUBBISH!


"There's a lot to be said for self delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart."
- Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there."
- Otomo No Yakamochi

QUIT DREAMING, & FACE REALITY.



i didn't choose to b lyk tis.
& i hate the way tings r turning out.
BACK FRM ASG OUTING. =D

morning had all the boring lessons.. zzZ.. & i was 10 or 15 mins late for CHEM. =X really had a hard time keeping awake during PHYSICS... n good news! tml's PHYSICS is CANCELLED! =D wahaha... anw chinese remedial was a total waste of time la... unproductive n lame. =X

AFTERNOON...
made ASG wait for me AGAIN. oops. =X then we proceeded to haf lunch at 85.. thruout lunch we were discussing where we shud go b4 dinner n we followed JUNHAN's suggestion. TAMPINES SAFRA!! lol. sounds lame but it was really FUN.

when we got there we juz lazed ard n played the photo hunt ting.. wah.. n it sucked.. there was tis lady, or man, or both keep saying tings abt us as we played.. lyk pls la the machine is not yours.. goodness.. wadeva la so dumb.. anw we did BOWLING 1st, aft a long long wait b4 YIYEE n SOCKLING arrived.. & my bowling totally SUCKS. nearly 70% of my balls went sweeping the gutters. XD if i rmb correctly my score was exactly 30. LMAO... wad can u expect frm a noobish first-timer lyk me?
aft tt we played pool. it was really funny how we totally IGNORED the rules of the game. n tt YIYEE was placing the white ball at anywhr she wanted to put it.. XD darn lame.. n we oso played the photo hunt thing continuously, trying to beat the high-score.. but in the end couldn't even get into one of the top few high-scores.. LOL.

went to EASTPOINT for dinner.. planned to haf it at han river, but apparently it was far too ex (got the price wrong). so we went to this cafe called thirteen EIGHTEEN chefs, if i'm not wrong... it was dammit funny la.. we were lyk so AA n acting lyk fools.. UNGLAM.. XD n HUILING n I was goin crazy over the 2 guitars we saw.. XD imagine playing the CELLO lyk a VIOLIN. it was really FOTCROTFLMAO... XD XD XD XD XD

aft dinner we wanted to celebrate SOCKLING, YIYEE n JUNHAN bdae by giving em surprise.. but JUNHAN had to leave so no choice.. in the end aft being so retarded n spending great efforts, we celebrated SOCKLING n YIYEE bdae at a nearby playgrd.. wad a place.. haha..

yep, tt's the condensed version of my day.. n i LOVE ASG
& you as well.



i guess now i realised how foolish i m.
i finally see how insignificant i m to u, n all tt i felt, did n thot abt was purely one-sided.
but even now as i noe wad a goof i m, n how stupid i'm acting, i'm still desperately holdin on the tt fine thread of hope.
i really dun mind u lookin at me differently, or treating me differently, coz i now tt is ur life n u haf evry right to live it ur way. i can only pray n hope tt mayb one day very soon u would no longer categorize me under "average". how i wish i could b more significant to u..

the truth abt reality is tt it's harsh & difficult to b accepted.
i guess tt's y i use DREAMS to escape frm it.
forget abt tt previous post.
it's all over. =D

rite now, i'm so elated tt i can fly to the moon n back a million times without feeling tired. WAHAHAHA.. at least sum misunderstandings were cleared.. =)

LOVE U, ALOYSIUS! =D
& of coz YOU as well. =)


TODAY IS YAYNESS! coz there's gonna b ASG outing!!!
five huge grins to tt! =D =D =D =D =D

BUT, thre r also lessons.. CHEM, PHYSICS n HCL.. goodness.. whole morning ruined. but ASG outing is definitely gonna motivate me to persevere on. xP

ok.. tt's all.. gtg.



even when it seems lyk tings haf brightened up, i'll pray for it to get beta.
i only hope tt evryting now is TRUE.
the angel of light flew away, leaving me in darkness...

so i tried to b honest,
but honesty blew it this time.

cancel out LOVE, & all u're left with is HATE.



evryting is lost, & there's no turning back.
thank you, n sorry.
n yes i haf decided NOT to blog abt june camp. juz make sum comments n tt's it.

1. it was the SLACKEST june camp ever.
2. the sec3s didn't put in effort both in prep n in camp. or at the least the sec4s strongly felt tt way.
3. evry1 simply pissed me off by not putting effort in FA prac. do u noe how much effort we put in?
4. almost evry1 has the wrong idea of nite sentry n fire drill. think of the big picture, dudes.
5. it totally did not haf the june camp feeling. =X as compared to the standard i've seen.

ok.. tt shud b all..


today went back to skl for Chem lessons.. intro to ORGANIC CHEM. evryting seems so foreign n scary. but there's sumting i like abt it.. DRAWING THE MOLECULAR STRUCTURE & NAMING! =D hahax.. so lame..

anw hols r coming to an end in ard 1 week. blehx! homework sucks! & scouts handover is AFTER JUNE HOLS!!!! goodness.. mixed emotions n feelings.. sumhow happy to handover coz more time to study, but oso dun feel lyk handing over coz i'll MISS evry1 n evryting. owells...



those words, & u woke me up frm my unrealistic dream.
now i pray as i patiently wait for another reply...
SCOUTS JUNE CAMP IS OVER.
but handover is only happening aft skl reopens. =_=

anw i tink the camp wasn't the best we could do.. honestly i feel tt it's rather unprofessional n slack how we seniors appear in front of those juniors, compared to how it was done 2 or 3 yrs back.. but owells times have changed n so do the mentality of ppl... thou i tink the camp 3 yrs back was fantastic, i oso feel tt it most prolly cant work out fr the batches now...



SLEEPOVER AT JJ's HSE =D
not at home now. lol. currently at jj's hse using his laptop while he's asleep. x) juz ard 2-3 hrs ago we actually went back to skl! tt's lyk ard 11.30. XD wad for? to get jj's contacts case n spectacles.. lol.. left it in skl aft break camp...



feeling v bored n sleepy now.. guess i'll stop here. details bout june camp MAY b put up at a later date, but most prolly i tink i wun do it. xP





passion desire so intense I can't take anymore...

when it's only either love or hate...
what will you choose?
Student Council M'sia Review/Reward Camp
@ A'Famosa, Malacca

DAY 1, Sun 3/6
coach ride started at 6.30am. 3 fun-filled hours of entertainment, singing, dancing, picture-taking & a lil sleeping b4 we stopped for lunch at a restaurant. food there was so-so & i absolutely LOVED the chendol. it was pure SWEETness. x)

the coach ride continued on n eventually we reached A'Famosa Resort. it was a big HUGE place where we could die travelling ard by foot. basically we had to rely on BANANA TRUCKS to travel ard the area, n i mus say it really wasted quite alot of time. we had to call for the truck whenever we needed to travel n the waiting time is AT LEAST 15min. back to wad happend... we took the banana truck to BEVERLY HILLS CONDOMINIUM for our review, but apparently there was a communicatn breakdown between the travel agency n resort, which resulted in the lag.

checked into the bungalows n i dropped my bag off in Lot 871. by then it was already 8plus, so we rushed to GOLFER's TERRACE for our dinner. the ride back to the bungalows were the most memorable of all rides. the sec4s were on 1 truck, while the others were on a another 1, n thruout the whole journey, both trucks were competing against each other to c hu was louder. LOL.

spent my nite at the sec4 girls bungalow. zzZZ...
END OF DAY 1.

DAY 2 , Mon 4/6
sum of us OVERSLEPT. lol. but still made it in time for breakfast at WATERWORLD.

went for horse-riding with liting, clarice, nalina & hanlu. it was oh-my-goodness expensive, but we got our asses on MISTY & GALAXY(name of the horses). x) rushed back to the bungalows to prepare for WATER THEME PARK aft lunch...

had our lunch at golfer's terrace b4 we(crystal, shiya, nalina, liting, chermain, edison & me) proceeded to the water theme park. it was a battle against crowd n time. lol. coz we had to rush back 6pm so tt the sec4s could haf dinner tgt...

aft dinner we headed to COWBOY TOWN as planned. but when we got there, we realised tt there was an entrance fee of RM30. we chose to go in, since we were already thre. watched a carnival n a close-up of a short fireworks display. then we went to LADY ANNABELLE KARAOKE. it was a BIG SCAM. no wonder they charged RM5/hr.. thou we had to get a drink n in the end pay RM15, the SCAM is in the fact tt nearly 80% of the newer songs were unavailable. notice NEWER? tt's coz the songs r all rather old. gosh.. but nevertheless we made full use of the RM 15 spent.. crystal was as usual zi-highing with sum others, jumping on the couch, while the rest of us were sitting down, either singing or sleeping. XD

headed back to our bungalows n tt was the end of day 2. sweet dreams...

DAY 3, Tue 5/6
had our breakfast at WATERWORLD agn, but tis time it was seriously slow... it was not lyk the previous self-service style, so we had to wait to b served...

PHOTO-taking time! surprisingly it happened wildly when we were on the coach to malacca town, n not when we were at A'Famosa. lol. LUNCH was horrid coz it was all spicy except for 2-3 dishes... BUT the chendol was great... cold n SWEET, perfect for a psn with a sweet tooth lyk me. =P

shopping at mahkota. 2 hours only but i didn't really care coz i didn't really wanna get alot of tings.. strolled ard the whole place alone, & bumped into ms. Lee thrice.. she's pretty funny, n a lil scary to me... lol. shall not disclose our conversations.. XD shopping results: a shirt, a pair of pants, 2 wallets n a pencil case.

shopping ended n we headed back to s'pore..

& tt's the end of Review/Reward Camp 2007. =D


reached s'pore at ard 8.30 n sum of the sec4s went to 85 for dinner until 10plus.. rushed home, packed my bag n headed to 4J chalet at ARANDA...


4J CHALET
@ ARANDA

Day 1, Tue 5/6
totally missed tis day. lol. reached s'pore at nite leh...

Day 2, Wed 6/6
reached the chalet at 1.30am. n yes u didn't c it wrongly, it is 1.30AM in the early early morning... KO at ard 2plus... lol

woke up at ard 10 n went to Mac for breakfast. aftnn went to Loyang point to get alcoholic drinks with the help of PRC scholars. LOL. came back n played mahjong. =D

BBQ started in the evening. Black Gold was took a very long time to start burning, but burnt for a long long time.. LOL. black gold is the name of the charcoal.. XD basically thruout the whole bbq i was doing the chicken wings. & as a lousy cook, i was unable to determine when the wings were already cooked, so evry chicken wing turned out 70% black on the skin.. LOL.

n when most of the ppl went up to play mahjong n xbox, sum of us, namely weiyang, catherine, camalyn, kawai, lekping n me stayed at the bbq area n chatted with OPG. weiyang was suan'ing catherine thruout, while OPG kept telling us gossips. XD OPG eventually left at ard 12plus n we went up into the chalet. i went to bathe while sum of em were outside tokkin bout ghosts. then it was catherine's turn. all of us went out of the rm while weiyang hid behind the bed.. not long after, we heard cat's scream. wahahaha XD..

entered dreamland not long after..

Day 3, Thur 7/6
woke up at ard 10. checked out n had breakfast at Mac tgt with Wenhui n Van.
said our GOODBYEs n THE END.


missed my last chance of goin student camp. sad in a way, but also happy tt i saved myself frm all tt exhaustion.



looking back, there r so many memories. frm hu we were 1 yr ago to hu we are right now, there haf been so much tt we've been thru tgt. the fun, the quarrels, the meetings, the camps n the bonds tt we haf forged. i'm sorry i haven't been the best of presidents, n i sincerely thank u all for constantly giving support regardless of my inferiority. & it's also bcoz of tis support tt i understood wad it really means to b one family. i appreciate evry single 1 of us, & treasure the times we spent tgt. Let us leave behind a legacy tt's nv to b forgotten. Let us forever remain as the 39th SMExCo FAMILY.


when will i ever get the chance to tell u?
& when u're in a good mood, it seems lyk the whole world has turned so much beta. =)

oh yes, frm today onwards, i muz remind myself to b happy person. sounds so cliche n girly emo stuff... but i dun care bout wad YOU may think. =P tis is me man.. i'm the kinda psn tt needs constant reminders so tt i can b optimistic. mayb i'm juz a pessimist by nature? owells, i'm striving to b a "happist". =)

abt today.. it was a not-so-lovely day. & as a happist-to-be, i shall avoid saddist stuff at all cost. so for tt, it's a no-no. =D

HOWEVER, my nx part MAY b a LITTLE emotional, n perhaps a fine line of sadness, but i gotta say it. OK WADEVER. it's juz gonna random...

well actually it all sparked off when i was reading sum1's post.. n escalated when sum1 approached me directly n said afew tings. yeayea, it's gonna b a thanking n apologising section.

ASG - & yes i do mean every single one of u lovely angels. well i appreciate the times we had tgt since sec1. those after-school times in the canteen, taking neoprints, movie, chalet, outings, studying, farewell'ing, bdae celebrations etc etc etc. there had been so much time tt we spent tgt, forging our frenship n constantly strengthening it. & at times, when ideas clash or relationships turn sour, we never fail to overcome em tgt. i really treasure the times we had tgt, n would lyk to say a big sorry. i noe tt for a fact aft i gotten my post, i neglected u ppl. i spent lesser time with u'al, thou u'al helped so much during campaigning n even celebrated my bdae with me. i feel so guilty n i'm really sorry. & as for the more recent times, i believe there haf been many occasions where i changed my mind last minute or go back on my words. i'm sincerely sorry n wish i can make up for those time. i dunno if any of u r angry or pissed with me, but i really hope i can make it up to u'al. as for those hu still show concern, i'm more than grateful n will forever rmb ur action. n yes, we are so gonna haf the best chalet n times tgt tt totally rock.

actually i was intending to go on to other ppl, but i dun wanna get too EMO, plus i gotta go sleep real soon. yep so guess i'll juz stop here. proceed on sum other time..


o btw, tml i've gotta b in skl by 6am. COUNCIL M'SIA REVIEW cum REWARD CAMP! woohoo!
39th student council! =)
will b back on tues, ard 7.30pm. tt's according to the planned schedule...

dun miss me peepx! XD
thou i noe i will miss many of u guys here...



i fell under ur spell.