i so strongly feel that i m suffering from IAD (Internet Addiction Disorder). lol.

check it out at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Internet_addiction_disorder

well under the proposed diagnostic criteria, i'll apply for 1, 3, 4 & 5.

1. Tolerance, as defined by either of the following:
- A need for markedly increased amounts of time on Internet to achieve satisfaction.
- Markedly diminished effect with continued use of the same amount of time on Internet.

3. Internet is often accessed more often or for longer periods of time than was intended, causing the untreated addict to neglect responsibilities at work and the needs of the family at home.

4. There is a persistent desire or unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control Internet use.

5. A great deal of time is spent in activities related to Internet use.


& tt's lyk 4 out of the 8 criterions. O.o oh wadeva!



ok now tt was juz sum random issue..

talk abt TODAY...

went to skl at ard 9.40 to claim my Hp back. then i headed to tanah merah MRT stn n waited there for my dad. basically it's coz he was supposed to bring me to sum ENT(Ear, Nose & Throat) specialist.

sum background info... my ears r always giving me problems. when i was 3, i had an ache in my right ear n visited the specialist once. the doctor said sumting bout my ear producing too much wax or sumting lyk tt, n there was sum buildup of it.. yea.. (n how do i even rmb tt? well it's coz i visited the same ENT specialist today, n they still haf the record. can u believe tt? it's been 12 years since then..) so tt was the long time ago issue. more recently, my LEFT ear has been suffering from pain if external pressure is added, either into the ear or juz even outside n below the ear.. tried to remove the object that was in the ear, but it juz far too painful. (i thot it could haf been a tumour. LOL)

so today, my parents decided to bring me to a specialist to solve the problem. carrying on from my wait at the mrt... alighted at city hall mrt n walked to Wilmer clinic (or sumting lyk tt) waited very long for my turn. zzzzzzzz...

n finally, my name was called! =D entered the doc's room n he asked wad was wrong with me.. told him bout the pain in my left ear n sumhow my dad said sum other tings n he told us the records of my visit 12 yrs ago. yep. he's a funny doctor. or shud i say friendly? lol. coz he was always laughing for no apparent reason (lyk over my records??). but in tt way he was really nice n easy to communicate with. his assistant/nurse was the real funny 1. she speaks really quickly, lyk a bullet train. lol.

so the doc had to take a look at wad was in my ear. i became very nervous, the reason being that i seriously cannot stand the feeling of any object in my ear. even the ear thermometer makes me feel uncomfortable.. so the doc took a look into my right ear, said it looked great. then came the left ear. the moment he look in, he saw the wax, thus he brought me into another room for sum microscopy ting to remove the wax.

it was freaky man.. i knew he was goin to insert sumting into my ear to remove the wax. i lay on the "bed" n the doc used the scope to look into my ear. cool ting was tt i could c the screen, which was actually the enlarged image of the inside of my ear. uncool ting was tt i did not wear my specs n couldn't see clearly. =_= finally, he was goin to remove the wax. it was terrible. the 1st time the equipment went in n got hold of the wax, i went "OUCH! ah.. ah.." with a very tensed body.. n so he removed a peanut-sized piece of hardened wax. phew! wad a relief. n when i thot it was over, the doc said that there was more wax in my ear. o.O n i saw it for myself as well.. so in it went, for the 2nd time.. this time it was much much worse.. i could feel the equipment got hold of the wax, then PULLING it out. "OUCH! AH! AH AH AH! ow.." then it stopped. however the wax was still inside. so came the 3rd entry, which felt the worst out of all. the pain felt as if a part of my body was being forcefully pulled out... at tt time i really thot my eardrum was gonna come out tgt with the wax. but the wax still did not come out! so there was the 4th, 5th n 6th entry.. T.T but all of it was not as bad as the 3rd... & when the BIGGER 2nd peanut-sized piece of wax eventually came out, my ear felt so open n my hearing for tt ear was lyk superb. i could even hear the wind.. lol.

consultation fee - S$80.00
Waxsol solution (medication) - S$6.50
microscopy - S$100.00
TOTAL = S$186.50

wth that was lyk totally expensive. gosh... i feel so bad for my parents...


aft tt i followed my dad to Funan the IT mall... well i've got totally no interest in all tt gizmo n technology stuff, so i was practically dying frm boredom...

came home at ard 1.40pm. my day officially ended. LMAO. XD



i've gotta quit this addiction...
it's really starting to feel lyk a one-man battle. sumhow all this seems lyk a war fought using the wrong tactics. it started out as US, but now it's me, you, him n her. i dunno y, but i haf a feeling that even the other commanders r goin their own way... shouldn't we at least stick tgt till the end of this battle?

i feel so useless when ALONE.
i feel so incapable as compared to the others.
i feel so ashamed.


to do it once more, from the very beginning; i would, IF i could.
face reality stupid jun le, that is just impossible.
today's so not my day...

start of the day, as i entered skl, i realised tt i had PE lessons today. felt lyk a total retard to b the only 1 in uniform.. then immediately aft morning assembly i went to GO n begged for a set of PE attire.. thank god the GO staff have compassion n lent it to me. i was saved frm being screwed by mr. C. =D

later at the end of the 2nd period, JIAJIE called me (while i was in class!?) n asked to borrow tt PE attire. actually his fren was supposed to bring it for him but sumhow tt fren did not, n so he had to borrow from me. owells, n me being such a NICE n WONDERFUL person, i lent it without hesitation. (wonder if i was really nice? or plain foolish? read to find out y foolish. lol.)

immediately after his PE was my PE. so i had to wear tt WET PE shirt, containing water n JIAJIE's PERSPIRATION. o gosh! how disgusting is tt. the worst part was tt the shirt had his odour as well, n combined with my odour, it was FOUL-smelling i suppose. =S anw today's PE was SLACK. coz initially mr. C was away, so we(a group of us) went to play CAPTAIN's BALL(which mr. C did not regard as a sport nor game =_=). BUT unfortunately mr. C came down afterall n we went to do sum fitness training b4 carrying on with our captain's MONKEY's BALL game.. lol. unlucky streak... i hurt 3 ppl in the game. 1st was LUCIENNE n her finger. then was CRYSTAL. i sorta bumped into her rather hard. Last was HUIXIAN.. the fall was juz bad, n embarassing. dun tok abt it man...

during 1 of the lesson aft tt, i accidentally drew a long line on HUILING's elbow. =X

after skl i totally avoided contact with ppl. didn't wanna kill HURT any more ppl


& tt's absolutely why YOU deserve it.
is there anyting wrong with blogger or wadsoever?
y is evry1 changing their URLs for their blogs?
hello! m i missing out on anyting?
insignificant in such a HUGE world...
sorry, but i'm getting frm RANDOM to UBER RANDOM. but hu cares anw man? it's my blog, my rules, my mind, my fingers etc.. XD wahahaz..

#. today.. a day full of "Zzzzzz". i was so SLEEPY. hardly could stay awake... almost nothing went into my head n i slept for the whole recess period. o.O.. how was my day? erm.. apparently i cant rmb alot of things coz i wasn't really in a fully conscious state. =X only tings i can rmb r the bio lesson & the $8 frm my A1s last year. lol. bio was abt hormones, endocrine glands, exocrine glands n adrenaline.. sounded interesting enuf to send blood into my brains... as for the $8, well it's abt MONEY. cashies! hu can resist it? XD

#. i'm screwed dead meat. =(
tt monster has defeated me n i haf no intention of fighting it anymore. =X

#. handover... sumting tt i'm looking foward to, but oso hopin it wouldn't come so soon.. =\ haix. it's such a complicated ting. (dun wish to elaborate. sorry.)

#. & THAT feeling is coming back. the depressing thots n stuff.. o gosh! i thot i got over the "moodswings period". man it feels disgusting. 1 moment tis, the next that. n aft a few more minutes another thot comes into my head.. i seriously dun haf time for tis anymore. gahs!! sklwork, cca, council, personal life, frenship, handover, christianity... wad is tis!? messed up piece of shit? AHHH!!! #@$!%&*$@~!@$@%#^*#^$%!!!


ok i conclude tt my posts r getting frm bad to pure HOPELESS.
wadeva! i'm not a good blogger. blehx!



it's driving me insane...
ASG IS LOVE! <3
=D
O YES!
JOB WEEK IS FINALLY OVER FOR AHS FALCON SCOUTS! woohoo!!!

mass pillaring n taupok'ing today wasn't really THAT fun. yest 1 was BETA. XD anw for those hu dun noe, the past 4 days had been JOB WEEK for me, or rather the scouts.. basically we'll go round visiting houses & do work/chores in return for money. & if there's no job for us, den we kindly ask for a donation. yea.. 4 consecutive days filled with REJECTION, kindness, warmth n funny incidents..

ok juz sumting stupid.. well i started typing tis post at 10.45.. but msn got me distracted. n now i dun feel lyk carrying on wif the post. XD

random tings... tml i'm goin for ASG BBQ! yayness! =D


i'm spastic! XD
GAHs!! MARCH HOLIDAYS R SO GONNA SUCK B HELL...
in fact, my life is already screwed up going out of hand now...
dammit!oh gosh!

march horror holidays r gonna be here in no time. the HORROR starts TOMORROW! O.O
basically chapter 1 of the horror has already started. i've got wondeful SS blog, an EL comprehension worksheet, an EL project on magazine & prep for BIO test... many more additions r expected tml, lyk tt propaganda-filled HCl & maths & chem & physics & omgoodness tt's alot! (considering my BUSY schedule..)

with all of that down, chapter 2 comes in. The CA1 Academic Report! 2-digit L1R5.. a very strong feeling tt it's gonna b more than 15. =S gosh! good luck to me..

n when skl ends, many many more chapters of horror begin. here's the schedule of my hols, consisting of tiny pains tt add up to pure torture...
09/03, Fri - [2pm-5.30pm] cca activity. [5.30pm-very late] PTC duty.
10/03, Sat - [8am-7pm] Scouts Job Week
11/03, Sun - [8am-7pm] Scouts Job Week
12/03, Mon - [8am-7pm] Scouts Job Week
13/03, Tues - [8am-7pm] Scouts Job Week. [unknown time] SM+ExCo Meeting
14/03, Wed - [unknown time] SM+ExCo meeting
15/03, Thurs - [7.30am-12mn] Scouts March Camp
16/03, Fri - [12mn-?] Scouts March Camp. [unknown time]NE excursion to Supreme Court
17/03, Sat - [5.30pm-11.30pm] ACS(I) scouts campfire
18/03, Sun - [FULL DAY] Homework


k i've got no more time to waste. gotta go finish studying for tml's physics test. Static n Current Electricity!!! e.m.f., p.d., current, charge, resistance.. bla bla bla...

toodles!
random stuff yet AGAIN. xP

suddenly remembered bout it.. forgot to blog it down earlier..
ahs falcon scouts have gotten GOLD for the Frank Cooper Sands award 2007 2006! it totally rocks my socks off. XD



i'm already starting to miss the times n frens in ahs...
with u, goodbye will never be easy... i'll miss u.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUHUAI! =)

yest cca was screwed, coz of the DISGUSTING rain tt came n go... it totally ruined the good day for activity. & rain sumhow always cause low spirits. owells wadeva... ANW, i've made a SCOUTS file for myself. =) basically it's juz info n documents related. yep. i'm so into tis job now. x)
i love scouts! =)

dinner wif ASG aft tt was as usual, WONDEFUL! =D
i love ASG! <3


o & i finally decided to take HCl. but it's gonna b a hard time for me.. 1 compo n 1 ying yong wen per week. plus OPG's "vitamins".. owells, it's a form of INVESTMENT... sacrificing now for the future...


evryting's juz changing to the opposite of wad it used to b...
if only it could better..