i'm juz so sick n tired of all tis...

pls dun let tings carry on lyk tis.. please...
was bloghopping... n i came across tzy harn's blog... well i saw his latest entry n i felt tt it was really meaningful, so i decided to adapt it n post it up as well.

credits given to tzy harn =)


YOU. You are a person, a human being. You have feelings, & that is feelings that no one can fully understand. When someone accuses you of being bad, do they actually know the reason behind your actions, & how it feels like to be in your position? It is only from their perspective that you are bad, but in actual fact that may not be the real case. When someone wrongly accuses you, you will have a feeling that he/she has misunderstood you; you will naturally have the urge to say "THINGS ARE NOT WHAT THEY APPEAR TO BE!". Well, this is the world. This is REALITY, and it's how people naturally are. It is an inborn thing. You can't blame them.
IT'S NOT THEIR FAULT.


it inspired me. well n i hope inspires u as well. =)
i'm feeling RANDOM again. XD


soccer, sports, arcade, computers, fingerpointing & punchfights. PHYSICAL stuff...
it's the "TYPICAL GUY kinda thing"

magazines, fashion, shopping, gossiping, b*tching, squabbles & catfights. emotional & INTELLECTUAL stuff...
it's the "TYPICAL GIRL kinda thing"


o lyk wth.. stereotyping in this society and world. gah!


the "organization" seems so down now...
people in it seem so sad, depressed, n mayb emotional.
the society seems to haf identified us in sum difficulty.

it really makes me wonder... issit my mistake, & tt actions now can nv make up for it? issit really a wrong decision to do tis? m i actually capable of tis? in the 1st place, m i the right man for the job?

members of the organization remain silent when asked for opinions. but deep down inside, all in their hearts, they haf so much to express. many hope for tings to b "normal", whereby evryting was still ok n in reasonably good spirits. but can tt b accepted by higher authorities n the society?

i didn't want tis to happen either, but tis is reality & it HAS to happen. personally, i'm in a state of confusion, frustration & fluster myself right now. at times i would haf the same thots lyk "y cant tings b the way they were?it was so peaceful then...", "r the flames still burning in me?", "wad is my purpose now?" & even "perhaps i shud take a step back, let go of evryting n truly relax". sad to say, but honestly, i seem to b losing it... i'm sorry.

i dun now wad to do right now. n i dun exactly noe haf a defined emotion within me.
i need sum1 to tok to.
i need sum1 to understand.
i need sum1 to enlighten me.
i just need HELP.
should i turn to GOD?


WHEE!

i'm DUMB IDIOT.
tan huiling is DUMBER MORON.
& sum1's DUMBEST RETARD.

WHAT A HUMONGOUS JOKE. LMAO. XD


ARGH!! there's lyk so many tings tt i hafta keep in mind. cca, council, CIP, HCl remedial, tests, class noticeboardS, n rehearsals for tt skit.

for cca... more or less stiu can rmb wad to do.. juz need to find the time to do it. =for council... i would choose not to tok abt it. =S
CIP... mainly linked to cca.. coz it's only at least once a month n time is juz so hard to find. =X
HCl remedial... seems to b a waste of time.. there dun seem to b a proper planned remedial tt will serve effectively. =X
tests.. at tis point is time.. my class haf been informed tt we'll b having 6 tests nx week. =(
class noticeboardS... notice the S behind? tt's coz i've got lyk 4 noticeboards to settle, sumhow.. 3 for CNY n 1 for permanent class usage.. those kinda for announcement or class stuff de...
rehearsals for tt skit... it's sum event tt will happen soon n a skit has to b presented.. link it... n u would have guessed it right. apparently i'm in it, but juz a minor role thou... bad ting is i hafta speak hokkien. =

"I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness...
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned...
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye."
Affirmation by Savage Garden

"God don't you know that I live with a ton of regret.
Cause I used to move you in a way that you've never known.
But then I accused you in a way that you've never known.
But you hurt me in a way that i've never known."
Break Me, Shake Me by Savage Garden

"Replacing you is so easy.
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable."
Irreplaceable by Beyonce



it means so much to me...
if only u'al knew...
Break Me, Shake Me by Savage Garden

I never thought I'd change my opinion again
But you moved me in a way that i've never known
You moved me in a way that i've never known

But straight away you just moved into position again
You abused me in a way that i've never known
You abused me in a way that i've never known

So break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Just break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone

So you're the kind who deals with the games in the mind
Well you confuse me in a way that i've never known
You confuse me in a way that i've never known

So break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
So won't you break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone

She says I can help you but what do you say
But it's not free baby you'll have to pay
You just keep me contemplating that your soul is slowly fading

God don't you know that I live with a ton of regret
Cause I used to move you in a way that you've never known
But then I accused you in a way that you've never known
But you hurt me in a way that i've never known

Break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
So won't you break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone

Break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone

Break me shake me hate me take me make me
Fake me break me shake me hate me take me
BREAK ME



Affirmation by Savage Garden

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love till you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
lyk wth.. i'm balding!!! it's not lyk my hair's turning wyte or wadsoever.. the fact is that i'm BALDING! ok.. mayb not.. but my hairline is receding. or at least it seems to b.. my forehead's gettin bigger n more exposed!!! ARGH!!! sum1 save my hair... T.T

liting, thanx for tt msg. i guessed it really did help me find peace n keep my cool. =)
my dearest huiling, thanx for ur msg too. thou i dunno how much u actually noe bout the situation i'm in, but ur innocent & sincere concern is really sweet. loves. <3


i juz pray for tis to end soon.
i'm juz pissed off, sad, angry, disappointed, frustrated, disgusted, stressed... ERGH! i so need to express myself!

to ______
lyk wad the.. u're the A.S.S.(u started the acronym urself). fancy the pot callin the kettle black. not only tt. u're a liar, a liar whose conscience is so disgusted by u tt it doesn't even wan to stay. i pity u for being able to face the world with such a front u put up. call me an "incapable hypocritical egoistic power-tripping idiot", go do sum self-reflection 1st dude. so by lying n showing ur untrue side isn't hypocritical? well at least i can say it's a facade. & not being able to perform well in class n in cca is considered capable? well i guess den u shud go look up the dictionary for the proper definition. o seriously i tink u need to go for a full day SEL lesson to learn abt self-awareness. put down tt pride of urs for a moment n do sum self-reflection...

to _______
wad is your problem man? if u're so unhappy here den leave will ya? u're lyk tryin so hard to prove ur point n tt's it. seriously, other than tt, wad's your purpose? i'm really confused by ur actions... & y cant u jus look upon urself 1st instead of reachin out for others. u r another 1 hu seriously need lyk a week of SEL lessons to learn self-awareness. at this rate, by the time u're all grown up n in a workin society, u'll juz b the 1 losing out. please, do sumting more sensible.


i seriously cant understand the new-age generation. y cant they juz look upon demselves 1st instead of denying it n coming up wif tonnes of excuses? n their pride.. so much so tt they become hypocrites. saving their own faces n goin back on their own words. wad liars. plus their mindset. tinkin tt the world revolves ard em. pampered brats tt expect so much frm others to b given to em. pls lar omg...

n tokkin bout COMPARING.. yeayea. i acknowledge tt comparing n following "tradition" can b of help to ensure the standards at times.. but it's only AT TIMES.. lyk puh-leeze.. tis is the 21st century n tings haf to b done in a way tt's different. we need to adapt to the times la.. n it's lyk if tings were done the way they were, there would nv b improvement. times haf changed n so do the way we do tings. if u'd like so much to compare, den ask urself these:
y m i so complexed compared to the ppl in the past?
y r my parents serving me n not the other way round lyk in the past?
y dun i juz listen to my teachers n parents n not complain, lyk how it was in the past?
y r policemen wearing long pants n not shorts lyk in the past?
y does the tv show coloured graphics n not black and white?

THINK ABOUT IT MAN, n stop comparing or ask stupid questions.



i've seriously gotta let sum steam out,
n tis is juz it. phew.
decided to change the url for my blog. no1 would care anw.
but wun b changing the skin anytime soon i suppose. it's juz too much of a hassle. n i cant really find 1 tt pleases me. owells wadeva.

thanx huiling. for being such a nice fren.
n sorry ASG for the bad mood yest.


nth else.
toodles.
i'm feelin EMO. =(

"time will pass us by..." i totally HATE it.

i dun wan tis to end so soon! =((



reality, tt's wad it is.
i hate reality!
WAHAHAHA... i'm feeling HIGH n uber RANDOM now.. XD (thou i stiu haf lyk tonnes of homework tt r undone =X)

random issue #1
TML's gonna b the presentation of CHIANGRAI CIP trip! WAHAHA.. but the sad ting is huizhongpo grp haf no1 presenting. =( so unfair! o wells, juz hope fotos n videos will b shown. heeheex x) o wait.. juz pray tt 1 of the foto wun b shown. x))

random issue #2
there's NO chinese tutorial tml!! WOOHOO! oh yea man.. mdm wong CK juz informed me lyk today aft skl.. wootx! xP

random issue #3
I LOVE AM SIMPLY CRAZY OVER MR. CHAI's PE LESSONS. oh man lyk seriously.. across my innocent lil heart. his PE lessons r not only EFFECTIVE in training purposes.. but also can b FUN la.. honest.. tt is if the whole class behaves n doesn't piss him off. mr. chai is a nice guy la. he juz treats students by the way they behave n respect him. yep. =)

random issue #4
i look foward to THURSDAYs and FRIDAYs! Y? coz there's the ever-so-interesting mr. chai PE lesson on thurs and CCA on fri. it juz pulls me to skl la... wahaha.. mr. chai rocks! =D n sumhow i juz love cca trainings. i've gotta do it well man! ;) lol. self-motivation.

random issue #5
i hate MONDAYS! coz there's a period of evry single subject, except Social Studies. lyk wth.. it means all homework for the weekend muz b done by sunday itself. oops. shudn't b sayin tis =X

random issue #6
i'm freakin BROKE! n i hafta pay $16 for council tee n $7 for sumting else. n the money left in my wallet is -$9.(negative coz the money is sum1 else's) =X HOWEVER, ppl owe me money! =DD my cca juniors owe me a total of $20. yanhao owes me $3. n yongquan owes me $12.90. =) whee! i muz get all these money back!!! =S

random issue #7 / LAST random issue
i'm so gonna fail my SS test tml... i've not started studying for it!!! i'm lyk rushing thru my overdue chinese ying yong wen now.. =X


as u can c, i've gtg..
TOODLES peepx =)



it jus seems to b snowballing into a huge disaster...
ok tis sux... i hafta finish my hike report by tml. (n i haven't even started! =X) lyk wth tt LCW, made it compulsory to take 1st class... now i'm in tis deep sh*t. rar!

lyk wadeva.. let's tok abt sumting happy. lyk YESTERDAY! XD

so i had cca in the morning.. prac hike.. nth special.. no1 died, didn't meet weird ppl on the way. it was juz NORMAL...

aft cca, junhan called to ask whether wanna go out to haf lunch or sumting.. n it turned out tt we were gonna watch a movie.. lol.

initially it was 5 of us.. jiesi, huiling, junhan, michael n me.. n so i juz randomly had the thot of us being the 5 ppl u meet in heaven. XD jiesi was the blue man, coz she was wearin the blue GB tee. huiling was Tala, the burnt vietnamese gal, coz she was "charred". sumhow i became marguerite. lmao.. as for the other 2.. it juz wasn't defined. XD

so the "heavenly" 5 ppl went to bedok interchange KFC for lunch b4 meeting jiemin n binli to watch movie at princess.

when we at the princess, we were rather shocked at the timings of the movies.. deathnote 2(which we wanted to watch) was at 9. night at the museum was at 7.30 (lyk wth). as for 茶舞, timing was juz right, but not all of us were old enuf to watch. blehx!

n here comes the turning point. LOL. there was this poster tt looked super chinese new year.. lyk sum uncle auntie kinda movie... n the timing was also ok for us. n so... ... WE WATCHED IT! ROTFLMAO XD o btw the movie's called 雀聖3:自摸三百回. english title is Kung Fu Mahjong 3: The Final Duel

presenting to u the pictures...

the poster of the movie... super aunty CNY style la. XD

the main character.

main character wif his jinx galfriend & the funny inspirational man in black.

the inspirational man in his angel costume. x)

the scene which made me larf lyk crazy. kungfu vs GUNS. LMAO. XD

didn't regret spending the time n money. kung fu mahjong 3's a nice, spastic n entertaining movie! x)


n now it's back stressing over the bloody disgusting hike report. RAR! kill me man...



the impossible is often the untried & self-imposed. =)
whee! logo designing is so fun! XD spent the whole of today designin logos for scouts tee..









yayness! =)



STEREOTYPED culture n mindset. i so hate it.
apparently i'm still annoyed n pissed. with whom? well.. it's a long list of ppl n things. =X
no. 1 on tt list will b... *drumroll*

ME, myself & i!!!


i juz had to repeat my dumb mistakes. rar! seriously i need sum1 by my side to SLAP me when the need arises...



i'm sorry but i've forgotten u...
i'm SCREWED so DEAD. X.X


& i'm so sick of the damned holiday homework. =X
+ tt freakin 1st class hike report by 20 jan. lyk omg wtf.

lyk dammit man. i seriously hate me n my downright shitt lazy attitude. ergh! i juz suck man..
rar!


sumbody juz slap me hard n wake me up pls...
what on earth is happening to mankind? y r more ppl gettin more immature n childish to do tings such as SPAMMING? it's juz such a pity.. haix...

o wells.. tml's ANOTHER big day.. it's the day when SKL REOPENS. n oso the day which marks the start of the horrendous sec4 life. not only tt. it oso means i'm 1 day closer to saying gdbye n farewell to all the wonderful frens n ppl in ahs. =(



it's only now tt i realize evryting is too late. sum1 once told me... "it's nv too late, for there's still time to do tings. beta late den never, yea?..." but i guess even wif the remaining time i haf, i won't b able to make tings happen to overwrite my conscience.. & very soon, it'll b goodbye wif a tonne of regrets. i guess i juz didn't haf wad it takes to bring tings up. i'm sorry...
i promise to do my utmost frm now, till the end. i promise...

resolutions...