wad shud i do?
haix... life is juz so complicated...

lately, there haf been issues within the family bout life n death... aft THAT incident, there was juz so much discussion..
as we all know, life is so fragile n unpredictable. hu noes wad might happen in the next second. juz lyk recently in the papers, a boy died in his slp n couldn't wake up to celebrate his bdae on the nx day. n tis boy had no illness or medical history. it's juz shockin to noe such unpredictable tings can happen... it's juz lyk sum1 hangin out wif u, n the next moment he's gone frm tis world... it juz comes so suddenly.. lyk *clap*, n he/she is gone... haix..

so here's a big thank you to all u ppl hu haf been a part of my life.
THANK YOU!!! =D
i wouldn't noe when i'll get the chance to say tis personally. i might juz die the nx second. =S

carrying on...
as i stated in my previous post, i haf been spending $$$ n stuff.. well my rationale behind it is to enjoy while i can. i dun wanna die (for example tml) wif regrets tt my wardrobe is totally limited n horrible.. yea yea.. den it all comes down to terms of $$$.. WASTING money on WANTS.. but it's the WANTS tt satisfies a psn further than NEEDs..
in terms of money...
satisfaction vs practicality.
i'll choose satisfaction. i'd rather enjoy life n die happily than live long in "boredom".

BUT...
in terms of actions...
personal satisfaction vs realistic outcomes.
now tis is the headache.. haix..
certain tings can b done easily, but certain others cannot. being caught in the situation where u r stuck, n knowin there's no perfect way out, tt's a difficult ting...
to speak of it or not? speak of it n for tt very moment i noe i haf cleared sumting of my chest. but resulting in such a terrible outcome tt i regret opening my mouth in the 1st place. however, if i juz kp mum, life would turn out much normal n beta. n i'll haf to suffer the agony of not being able to fully express myself.
to do it or not? carryin out tt action may juz bring so much satisfaction to myself, knowing tt i haf done wad i wanted to, but causing others to b hurt. then, i wont b able to live pass tt very day. IF i juz restrict myself, evryting will turn out fine.. or at least evryting OUTSIDE ME will turn out fine.

wad should i do?

if only decisions were easy to make.
if only life was tt simple...



i'd like to give YOU a big hug n whisper "thanks" into ur ears. =)