tis is a random post. it's RANDOM, so dun ask y i do it. =P


Who Knew by P!nk

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all WRONG
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings NOW
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew



Mistake by Stephanie McIntosh

Rushing, way too fast,
Why do I always do it?
Thinking this might last,
How could I be so stupid?
But this time,
I'm not OK, no,
I need to breathe again,
'Cause I don't want to

I DON'T want to make
Another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate
But love doesn't get me through
Cause I can't be alone again
No I DON'T want to make
Another mistake like you

Stone cold and hurt inside,
Not what I wanted to be
I don't sleep,
It's kind of hard when you cry,
Yeah that's where you left me,
But this time,
It's not alright, no,
I need to find someone,
'Cause I don't want to

I DON'T want to make
Another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate
But love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be alone again
No I DON'T want to make
Another mistake like you

Don't want to be caught in the moment,
That never comes,
Is it too much to ask,
That real love will find me,
I won't get stung, I'll find the one but,

I don't want to make
Another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate
But love doesn't get me through
'Cause I can't be alone again
No I don't want to make
Another mistake like you

No I don't want to make
Another mistake like you
And I don't want to hate
But love doesn't get me through
Cause I can't be alone again
No I don't want to make
Another mistake





save those words. actions speak louder.
juz sum RANDOM quiz...


1) How old do you wish you were?
no preferance... 15 will do just fine. =)

2) Where were you when 9.11 happened?
home i suppose... i carn rmb!

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
announce to the whole world tt the vending machines are SPOILT!

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
NOT AT ALL. xP

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
no tattoos for me!

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
french? LOL. tt's so random...

7) Do you know your neighbors?
hmm... only 1 of em. o.O

8) What do you consider a vacation?
a trip to sumwhere far frm home to RELAX.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
NOPE...

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
hmm.. it depends on movin where...

11) Are you touchy feely?
dun tink so ba.. mayb at times? =X

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
yes ba... i guess.

13) Dream job?
professional dancer... =D thou i haven thought of wad kinda dancing yet. xP

14) Favorite channel(s)?
channel 8 & 5.

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
anywhere but home. =X

16) Showers or Baths?
BATHs!!

17) Do you paint your nails?
YES! x) i tink it's juz so chio.. XD

18) Do you trust people easily?
yea... real easily..

19) What are your phobias?
the dark, horror movies, flying insects n rejection...

20) Do you want kids?
NAH... too much of a hassle.

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
nope...

22) Where would you rather be right now?
out partyin n enjoying the night.

23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
tt's my lil secret. =P

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
HEAVY. WAHAHA.. i slp lyk a PIG. oink oink. zzz...

25) Are you paranoid?
yes! absolutely! i alwaes haf a bad feeling for all tings..

26) Are you impatient?
at times...

27) Who can you relate to?
dunno... i prefer to kp tings inside.

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
their child(ren) alwaes has nice looks.. n i'm juz so jealous! XD

29) Have you been burned by love?
err... burned by the FLAMES of passion? XD

30) What's your favorite pick-up line?
HI! =D

31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
sum spastic tone la.. xD

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
using the comp... but i cant rmb wad for. o.O

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
cant say... it has sum EXPLICIT content... xP

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my very own mattress on the floor.

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
the ever-so-pure WHITE...

36) Most recent movie you watched?
cant rmb..

37) Name three things you have on you at all times?
dirt, germs, dead skin cells...

38) What color are your bed sheets?
white n dark red stripes.

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
$0.00. not a single cent.

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
thighs!!! wahaha...

41) What's your favorite town/city?
no favourite... =X

42) I can't wait till..?
the exams r over n all the outings n chalets start rollin in! =D

43) What did you have for dinner last night?
hmm... fried chicken, fried fish, fried potatoes... aiya... WESTERN FOOD la.. lol.

44) How tall are you barefoot?
extremely short @ 1.68m

45) Do you own a gun?
nope... not even a WATER gun...

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
HOT MILO! =9

47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
too many possibilities...

48) Last thing you ate?
pizza.

49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
none. i m SILENT in the shower. =)

50) Last thing that made you laugh?
a joked tt i cracked at yest's fengshan forum. LoL.

51) Worst injury you've ever had?
left elbow dislocation... p2 tt time if i'm not wrong..

52) Does someone have a crush on you?
highly DOUBT so.

53) What's your favorite candy?
eh.. i lost my sweet tooth since the start of tis yr...

54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
EMO songs... LOL.

55) Five random people to do this?
i'm nice.. i wun "sabotage" ppl to do tis...
any1 can do tis if he/she wans to... =)



tis isn't my ideal ending either...
MANY MANY THANKEWs! =D
so many ppl hu rmb tis day... =)

in no specific order...

SMSes (thnx for the sweet birthday messages x))
- tabitha
- binli
- sock ling
- aloysius
- melody
- clarice
- geraldine
- jiajie
- jie ting

birthday present W (thnx for the ITEM. XD)
- lucienne
- wenhui
- camalyn
- rachel
- catherine
- vanessa
- huiling
- waileong
- willie
- (i carn rmb the 1oth psn. =X oops!)

THANX to...
- chenyin, for the testimonial
- elizabeth, for the eCard
- zhising, rachel er, melody, weyjian & aloysius, for the birthday greeting on msn
- ASG, for the board, steamboat & time together (eh... i dunno hu got me the cute keychain leh. =X)
- all the ppl hu wished me happy bdae, no matter where it was n how it was expressed =)

luv u'al! x)



all u ppl were the ones hu really made my day. thankew SO much. =)
it's juz approx 1& a half hr more to go.. haix... dunno whether i should b happy anot... sumhow i juz haf a v bad feelin bout tml... i'm juz SO confused now la...
haix...


at least i noe there r ppl out there hu still care...
but wad abt U?
it's all gettin so unexpected. so out of hand. haix... y has it got to turn out tis way?
but i guess there's really no1 to blame... =

anw.. thnx to liting for her advice. it is really GREATLY appreciated... =)




39 ppl with 1 common goal. tt's wad i hope can really happen.
121 ppl with 1 common destination. tt's wad i dream for.
u haf to sow b4 u reap.
u haf to GIVE b4 u can GET.

& now i learn...


i'm so sorry.




miracles do happen, right?
not goin skl tml. grandma's funeral... specifically the cortege.


shock > traumatised > saddened > confused > frustrated > depressed
den sum tinkin thru takes place n...
VOILA!
all the sadness is put to the back of all thoughts.



so many qns, so many doubts.
tryin so hard to avoid the sadness...
i'm NOT dead! =D

aw... ain't it juz SAD? WAHAHAHA... xP


achieved the 1-star award today. not big a deal anw... it was EASY to attain it la.. not tt i boasting, but the requirements r seriously damn low.
ANYWAY... kayakin was as usual, FUN. LOL. shall not elaborate la... coz i dun feel lyk doin so. =P BUT, i got so many "injuries"... RAR. for a start.. i haf many tiny cuts all over my arms, which i oso dunno how it got there.. n my hands, they r lyk in the state juz b4 u're abt to get blisters. the back left of my neck is sunburnt, n it HURTS so badly now... the right side of my waist is in PAIN, sumhow. the back of my pelvis is also hurting, due to the long hours of pressin it against the HARD seat...

okok wadeva. no mood to carry on le. i'm TIRED. zzz...
=P


my existence, ignored n denied...
sad to c me posting? WAHAHA...

i DID NOT drown! =D
bet u EVIL FREAKS out there r crying out n cursing wadeva crap. but it's ok... i m half dead n tt shud b pleasing u'al a lil. xP

kayakin course was... TIRING. x.x seriously la.. it's energy-consuming for the arms la.. o wadeva.. i m juz a WEAK piece of junk la. blehx! BUT BUT BUT. kayaking is freakin FUN! =D except for capsize drill tt is. x)
o o o.. n seawater juz SUCKs big time. drinkin it is juz disgusting. gettin it into ur eyes is uz irritating. contact wif ur lips n it stings... dry it out n it leaves ur skin itchy. RAR. wad shit sia.
lol.


anyway to those EVIL FREAKS out there... there's still tml for tis half dead body to DIE. so i guess u'al can juz wait for the news tml. WAHAHAHA. happy waiting... =)



it's abt equality n fairness...
I WENT FOR FLAG DAY TODAY! =)
n it's really tiring.

supposedly briefing at 9.45 outside tampines regional library... but i was late... WTH. i mean lyk.. i left my hse at 9.25 n took a cab there, but apparently today isn't my lucky day. out of 8 traffic lights, 7 had to turn red. n there was tis freakin dumb traffic light, which only allowed 5 cars to pass b4 turning red. =_= wasted 5 mins of my time sia. RAR.

reached the library ard 9.50 n got partnered wif the smart leonard sumhow. lol. so aft we settled all the crap stuff (eg. collection of our cans n registration...), we did ard tampines... o o o.. n the donation was for sum "preservation n conservation of wildlife, supported by the zoo n nite safari" LMAO. realizing how slow it was for us if we continued in tampines, we deicided to venture out of tampines... into SIMEI. WAHAHA.

simei was a great estate. earned alot in a short time... generous n nice ppl there. =)
aft tt went to expo. the ppl there juz suck la... guai lan can... got 1 even ask me "so do u lyk animals?" lyk o.O can... summore say what not doing out of PASSION. omg la... lol.

collected till lyk 2/3 of the can den me n leonard went back to the library to clock out... n we slacked all the way aft tt. =X no.. actually we helped out at the "counter" there lor. x)

ok.. shall not badmouth those SLACKERs hu spent so many hours to collect less than 1/4 of the can. xP



kayakin course tml n tues... 10am to 5pm... seems lyk it's gonna b TIRING. o wadeva.. hope it's fun n i dun DROWN. lol.

toodles~!



jealousy ruined us all.
so now it all comes down to ME.

my stupidity.
my foolishness.
my disability to ask n find out.
my ignorace.
my lack of understanding.
my insensitivity towards ur feelings.
my horrible attitude.
my irritating voice.
ME ME ME!

i shud haf asked u in the 1st place. i shud haf found out y. or at least TRY to. but i DID NOT. i was a fool. u r not to blame, not the slightest bit guilty.



n now it's all too late. but it's only now tt u say i need to change. y? y not earlier? u shud haf known how STUPID i was to never find out, unless u speak of it. or mayb i was too distracted when u actually spoke of it earlier on. i dun noe, but i'll find out. i wun repeat my mistake for the last time.

so wad issit tt i shud change? wad in me is the flaw tt i haf the ability to change? wad is tis ting tt might haf caused a different outcome? i m askin now, hopin u can enlighten me.

tings can nv b the way we wan them to b anymore. all is lost.
n all i can say is... SORRY.
sorry for being the fool, too stupid to ask anyting, too stupid to even try.
& THANX.
thanx for letting me understand how stupid i was.


u haf taught me sumting so impt. thnx.
missed my class' flag day today. totally forgot abt it only until lyk juz now 7+ pm.. LOL. o doesn't matter.. there's a make up 1 for it anw. on 23 sept. WTH. sucky date... =X but only can blame myself for being so forgetful n forgetting today's 1. RAR!

n mrs goh isn't replying my sms nor pickin up my calls. RAR!


it doesn't matter if i tried. it'll all end up the same, i guess.
Unfaithful - Rihanna

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's MORE than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm UNFAITHFUL
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him DYING

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him DIE a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A LIE I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm UNFAITHFUL
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him DYING

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A MURDERER

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I DON'T wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him DIE a little more inside
And I don't wanna HURT him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I DON'T wanna be...
A MURDERER (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah
i bid u farewell.. n wish u all the best.

u're finally FREE.


fire burns n destroys...
use the torch instead. it's safer n much more convenient anw.
i give up.

it's over.
IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER.

ur actions hav proved it, n i can deny it no more. even deceiving myself wun help now.


the candle tt had been blown out can always b re-lit.
but without any wax, the wick can nv sustain a flame.
it's THE END.