today's the BEST day since skl reopened aft june hols. woohoo!

lemme start frm the top....

today's AHS sports day, n it is sort of according to cca. met in skl wif other scouts b4 headin to bedok stadium as a troop. got a lot at the end of the stadium... ok.. it was dumb... pure retardedness... so bla bla bla... performance sucked. both for sports day n as a leader. unhappy stuff. shan't elaborate. SKIP! x)

aft sports day at bedok stadium, we had PLC bac in skl. discussed bout problems n activity stuff... all those usual tings... yep. den had lunch at 85.

the FUN starts aft lunch. XD 1st up was DANCE rehearsal. sorta rehearsal... x) it's for invest... yup, so it was SUPPOSED to start at 1.30. but when i got there at 1.50, it stiu have not started.. =_=... oh oh oh! n ppl were askin me out at the same time... x) i could either go to TM, pasir ris beach, or stay for DANCE. n apparently i stayed for dance FIRST.. n left ard 4.45. made my decision to go to TM wif dear YONGQUAN & xiao di GLEN. x))

rushed there... almost half dead, but they "revived" me... wahahaz. x) n i feel so bad.. i actually made dem wait for 4 hours for me.. oh gosh... so sorry ar yongquan n glen.
when i got there, i went high, lyk a crazy idiot. den i AP'ed em... coz i jealous. we made our way to the cinema n bought tickets for the superman movie. it was so fun to AP em... XD n it was my 1st time i tokked so much in a cinema theatre. x) so damn fun i muz say, thou it was juz a movie... wahahaz. movie ended at ard 7.45 den we all proceeded home... n i took bus 10 home wif my cute xiao di GLEN! x) no.. i shud say.. my 6-pack RICH ASS cute xiao di GLEN. wahahaha. LMAO. jkjk.


tml's gonna b real "FUN" man... cca frm 8 to 1. stomp training frm 8.30 to 12.30. SYF frm 2.45 to 8.30. it's so NOT filled wif activities la... blehx!!!



so close... yet so far.
HUGS n KISSES x)

yan hao hugged me today! wahahaz. not tryin to b AA. but well... it's lyk... how often do u get such a warm n cosy HUG in s'pore? n with "HI. nice to meet u." as the main meaning behind the hug. XD it's RARE ok... or at least in s'pore.


ok.. no more time to crap... gtg n pia letter for maths project. =S



forever it shall b.
lost my appetite. lost my interest in studying.



juz hope i haven lost interest in life.
it's the LAST DAY of the june hols! blehx!
how i wished there wasn't even a "holiday" for us. coz it's so totally not 1!

so i did the wrong ting today n went out. =X
got a relatively expensive watch. it's $98, which is EXPENSIVE to me.... actually is discounted price... UP was $130+. oh wadeva. i m poor la...
n i oso got 2 pairs of jeans. relatively cheap jeans. 1 at $20 , the other at $29. x) n i m very PLEASEd wif myself for getting such a lovely pair of jeans. wahahaz. x)


okok... tt's it. end of story. no more. =P



the horror begins tml.
it's all over.
all camps n chalets for the june hols r officially over. n now... lookin back...

27-29 May
Patrol Leader Training Camp

29-30 May
Selection Camp

31 May - 2 June
3J chalet

8-10 June
Reward/Review Camp

12-15 June
June Training Camp

20-23 June
ASG chalet


it's all over.
my life's over. i haf been screwin so many tings up, in all aspects of my life. school, family, n mayb even frenz.
skl - mainly council, cca n sklwork. screwed them all.
family - gatherings, time together n interaction. barely managed it.
frenz - guess i left them out. so sorry.

if there was an assessment for my life, i'd probably get a maximum of 10 out of 100. it's juz horrible.

blame it on my STUPIDITY, my INCOMPETENCY, my LACK OF INTELLIGENCE & my DISABILITY of life MANAGEMENT. blehx! i'm not fit to b in tis position i'm in right now. i dun deserve tis!
ok.. i noe i shudn't b sayin all tis rite now, but well, i hafta FACE REALITY. these r cold hard FACTs tt r rite in front of my eyes. no denial, THESE R MY IMPERFECTIONs!

shoot me down. throw me over. use evidences tt exist evrywhere to kick me out. i would haf no comments.


it's over. it's all over. it's seriously over. MY LIFE's OVER!!!
blehx!


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holidays r comin to an end. n i know tt there r so many tings which r gonna literally KILL me when skl re-opens.

guess i can only blame myself. =
-no comments pls-
-no comments frm myself too-



comin to an end? NAH. it's juz the beginning of HELL.
ASG chalet is over. hmm... it was sorta cool... coz the chalet was our HOME. x)

lyk we go.. "let's go home!" but the real meaning was.. "let's return to the chalet" wahahax. don't cha wish ur life was as cool as ours? x)

ok.. so basically the chalet was frm tues till today. lol. for me, i had to return to skl almost evryday. oh wait! it is evryday except for today. x) hmm... so lyk i said earlier, the chalet was our temporary home. returned there to slp, snack n grow fat! wahahaz.

too lazy to update the details. summarising it... it was an exceptionally unique one-of-a-kind chalet experience. x)


enjoy... but only to cause more suffering.
hmm... sorry peepx for not updating... i juz dun haf the mood to do so. evryting seems to b happening exceptionally quickly all of a sudden. JUNE CAMP's over. council handover. SCOUTs handover/POP. evryting is really crashin in all at once. looks lyk it's gonna b tough time for the start. =
lemme start wif SCOUTs JUNE CAMP. basically JUNE CAMP is tis annual TRAINING camp where we r assessed on many aspects of scouting. ALSO a camp for us to learn. seriously, the experience tt 1 gets for each yr is different.

sec1s will attend june camp n seriously learn many more camp stuff such as tent-pitching. it'll usually b their 1st time experience of a camp, where it's really an eye-opener for them.

as for the sec2s, they havta undertake the responsibility of lookin aft the sec1s n guiding them when possible. it'll b the time where they take on the role of managing the campsite n their own patrols, due to the reason tt the sec3 PLs r frequently called upon to meet seniors.

for the sec3s, it's time where they get assessed on their capabilities, mainly leadership. sec3s r expected to take care of their patrols, at the same time ensure tt his men r all makin an effort. it's oso the time when they finally will understand certain actions made by the seniors.

ok.. tt was lyk sum crap talk.. n well.. tt was my opinion.. so it's.. UNRELIABLE! xP


hmmm... june camp...
it was disastruous! coz i din really get down wif my patrol n planned for june camp. evryting was impromptu. n none of my patrol members actually learnt PROPER 1st aid n scout lore. 1st day the inspection & layout was considerably good. coz we actually managed to layout quite well without any planning at all. i felt tt was gd.
the rest of the 1st day was camp D. it was slow. partly coz i dun haf any designs. but also due to the fact tt my patrol moved quite slowly.

2nd day main activity was backwoodsman cookin. it was a combined patrol activity, meaning 2 patrols form 1 grp. n my patrol got paired wif elephant. once again,without planning, but now for both patrols. n worst of all, with last minute collected fuel. lyk DUH the fuel was too lil. initially, the cookin seems lyk it was gonna b a failure, coz our fire could never reach the state whereby it filled the whole pit. it was alwaes towards 1 side n filling only half of the pit. =_= but fortunately in the end, my combined patrol managed to cook most of the food successfully. in fact, it was one of the best grps. wahahaz. as for the 1st aid practical... screwed it. blehx!

3rd day was the pulau ubin hike. it was FUN! lyk how often do we get to explore pulau ubin, summore on a hike. it was lyk tt. another combined activity where my patrol combined wif eagle. we were at first hiking quite quickly, makin good progress.. until 1 ckpt, where we decided to haf our lunch.. our morale sort of dropped drastically since then. so aft tt ckpt, we din really had the die-die must reach tt ckpt attitude. we decided tt we try a shortcut, where roads weren't shown on the map. x) we walked n walked... ended up at sum deserted area n only turned back when we saw the police barrication. lol. a black puppy followed us playfully, n we really had fun wif it. x) but it got chased away at the end. at nite we had thoery test on 1st aid, scoutlore n general knowledge. den had our song/skit. another impromptu activity wif elephant. sianx.. shall not elaborate. =P

last day was strike camp n packin up. yea.. all tt sian stuff...

june camp.. hmm.. saw the fun in it.. n really learnt many tings. ok.. mayb not learn, but more of understood tings which i nv could. to sum it all.. THE CAMP WAS ENRICHING! x)


fri.. which is yest... had council handover.. woke up late. sorry peepx. i fell asleep without setting alarm. guess i was too tired aft JUNE CAMP. srry. hmm.. oso did sum cleaning up n re-shuffling of the furnitures in council rm. den sorta stayed in skl n slack. went crazy wif kelly, huiyin & evelyn. we took PROFESSIONAL MODEL SHOTs. LOL. had so much fun in the concourse posin n posin n posin. wahahaz. den oso attempted to learn sum dance moves.. wahahaz. XD i'm SEXY ok. xP


today... scouts handover.. quite satisfied wif the results... got wad i wanted.. but evrytings seems so sudden. it's lyk.. all the responsibilities juz crash on us la. n to tink of it, it was juz 2 days ago tt we were "juniors". n now.. *BOOM* we r the seniors, havin juniors under us to take care of. hmm.. looks lyk it's gonna b v messy for the start. =

bla bla bla. i dun feel lyk bloggin anymore. =P evryting's lyk so summarised. wahahaz. bloggin for today stops HERE. xP



it's affecting me. oh gosh dammit! i shudn't b in tis situation. blehx! WTH. i shud not even b involved in these kinda stuff. oh man. blehx!!!!


i'm never gonna let go. NEVER!
BLEHx!!!

tis holiday juz rocks stinks man.. lyk TOTALLY!

juz came back frm council review/reward camp.. n mon is the start of JUNE CAMP. yea yea. blame it on myself for poor time management! blame it on myself for not knowing how to make choices! blame it on myself for not makin the rite sacrifices! BLEHx! ya ya ya, it's MY fault for gettin myself in tis state. WADEVA! BLEHx! damn damn damn!!! blehx!!!

juz SHUT UP will ya? lyk u'll EVER understand me. BLEHx! i'm human too u noe. it doesn't mean tt a difference in my so-called "status" makes me superman. ya, i admit i hafta b beta wif managing such stuff, but seriously, there is a limit too. n it's juz within such a short time n many tings r CRASHING into my life. n i really mean CRASHING, wif IMPACT. BLEHx! damn bloody freakin retards!

yup... so if u ppl do haf a CONSCIENCE, pls stop SARCA'ing me n LEAVE ME ALONE! BLEHx!


giving myself excuses or juz stating facts, i dun really care la. wad's more impt is focusin' n managin' the current situation. haix...
tings r alwaes easier said than done. freak freak freak!


i'm SORRY if any1 feels offended in any way. bleh! i'm PISSED ok.



the all mixed-up feeling of anger, sadness, frustration, depression & confusion within me.
PHEW! finally.. RESTin time, aft 2 camps n 1 chalet. =)

so not in the mood to blog. but wadeva, juz a summary ba. =P

PLTC
sat morn meet at eunos mrt. den was sent to SARIMBUN scouts camp, sumwhere in lim chu kang. wait... or issit choa chu kang? lolx. aiya. is the cemetary area there la.. x)

yups.. went there den settle down. aft tt immediately camp D. it took a VERY long time.. Zzzzz.. den oso made gadgets tt day... yar. basically tt's it.

2nd day was bad. early early early in the morn had tis dumb FIRE DRILL. n my patrol was the only patrol which was woken up by the sirs. suay la! i blur blur dunno wad to do... got scolded lyk shit. coz i was PL for tt day.. haix... we assembled at the MPH(or sumting liddat =P) n the shit ting happened. we did "PT"... n the worst of all, we were made to throw our footwear into the open n get it back in 5 secs. lyk WTH! so many of us lost our shoes n ended up wearin shoes tt belonged to others. for me, i found my left shoe, but i had to wear a right shoe tt wasn't mine n was smaller by 2 sizes. =_= but lucky my shoes were old. can get new ones le! =P

had games tt day. n 1 of the game was really VERY interesting. super impressed man. n oso felt so dumb. heeheex. oso listened to talks n had lessons. at nite had campfire. yup. overall is lyk a total all-rounded learning experience la. seriously. i tink it was GREAT, other than the sirs n leaders goin round spewing vulgarities every 5 sec. x)

last day was juz break camp n pack up. stuff liddat. ya, it ended in the aftnn.


selection camp
went home to rest for while. took a bath n headed to skl in the evening.

to summarise the camp... it was juz dance, cheering, games n interview.
dance n cheerin were FUN. lol. as for nite games... it was terrible. i had to stay in the canteen girls toilet for 2hrs n 45mins wif jing yi. it was damn hot. plus the wig i was wearin, it was realli horrid.

had midnite interview.. supposed to stay the whole nite thru... but due the the PLTC b4 selection camp, i was really too tired to stay up the whole nite. so i went to sleep. =X
sorry. heex.


3J chalet
went home aft selection camp n slept for 1 nite. next day evening(which was wed evening) left for 3J chalet. had BBQ tt nite. slacked for the nite. me, cat, cam n lp went mac to play cards until 3+ am den went bac to chalet to slp...

nx morn(also yest morn x)) woke up early. went home to change b4 headin to skl for PUB meeting. discussed the usual stuff n went back to chalet in the aftnn. slept n slacked for the rest of the day. LOL.

today left the chalet at 8.20am.


took a bus home. fell asleep on the bus n missed my stop. the funny tings is, i din realize i passed my stop until lyk the bus past another 5 stops. so dumb can. i had to take the bus back for lyk 10 over stops. seriously.. i was DUMB la. coz there was tis guy wearin AHS PE shirt. OBVIOUS tt he was goin to skl. lyk DUH. but when i woke up n din c him, i din realize tt i already passed tanah merah mrt stn by so much. lol.

yup. so bla bla bla. had cca for the day. up till 6.30 liddat.



guess tt's all i hafta SUMMARISE. x)


next up: reward camp! =)



changin for the beta?
i hope so.